Written in my blood
For every time he makes me cry, he doesn't understand that behind a closed door late that night a blade does get revenge.
For every time i'm all alone with no one left who cares, i can rip my flesh without a care for every pressure they shove on my shoulders.
They do not understand that the pressure isn't the only thing weighing me down.
I've only done it a few times, and i know how wrong it is, but when everything gets too much, the blade draws me back again.
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ouch babe, dont harm yourself to make yourself feel better. Been there. Done that. You have no idea how f******* bad i feel when my two year old twins ask mommy why she has all those lines on her arms.
Physical pain may take away emotional pain for a while - not forever. I started cutting at age 12, lost all my friends and boyfriend by 16, let the blade slip too deep at 17 - that almost cost me my life. Im so glad god gave me another chance because at 18 i found the love of my life. we dated for 5 years, and now hes my amazingly beautiful husband, and my precious 2 year old twins.
Trust me dear, life will get better, as long as you put the blade down.
wow. what youve just said about the pressures weighing down on you and what goes on behind the closed doors at night is something i can definitely relate to. you wrote this for yourself though so this is about you, not me. you probably wrote that years ago and im assuming youre an adult as you have 2 kids, but i just turned 14 yesterday.
we both have turned to a blade for help, and apparently we need the help, but not the blade. so if you still need help, or anyone whos reading this, tell all. i feel that this post means you want help anyone reading this post also wants help, so go get some! before you lose all hope... know that i hope for us all :)