The drug from hell
I'm writing this to deter young people from trying the drug ice.
I realise that for some of you it won't matter what i say and you will go ahead and try it anyway, but if I can prevent even just 1 person then it's well worth the time it takes to tell my story.
As a young kid I was intelligent, popular, quick-witted and funny ... all the ingredients for success. However at the age of about 13 I started hanging out with guys who listened to a lot of rap music. I think music can be very influential for young people. Lyrics like "I'm on the drug scene, f*** the football team" and "Relax and take note, while i take tokes of the marijuana smoke" actually had me believing that drugs were cool.
I first tried smoking pot when i was 14 years old. I tried ecstasy at 15 and speed at 16. I don't think marijuana automatically leads people to use harder drugs but the problem is because it's illegal, you find yourself hanging out with shady people in the drug scene and sooner or later one of them will offer you something else.
My drug use hadn't turned into a full blown addiction up until the age of 18 when i was introduced to ice. I had a friend who was from the Philippines and asked me if i wanted to try a drug that was popular in his homeland called "shabu". I had no idea that it was crystal meth and i trusted my friend so I agreed ... BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE. There's not a day that goes by without wishing I could turn back the clock and tell my "friend" to take his "shabu" and stick it where the sun don't shine.
By age 21 i had lost my girlfriend of 5 years due to my ice addiction. My family members found out and although they showed me lots of love and support, they haven't looked at me the same since. From age 18-21 i estimate to have spent approx. $30 000 on my habit.
I used to be very handsome and quick-witted but now the ice has burnt out my brain so i no longer have a funny personality. I also now have red welts all over my face and skin which has destroyed my good looks.
It started out as a social drug i was taking with my friends when we'd go out. Now whenever i use ice i just sit at home by myself, watching porn and masturbating for hours. It changes you in all sorts of ways ... when I am not high on ice i don't even read Playboy magazines, let alone watch hardcore porn.
In conclusion, please take it from me and don't ever try methamphetamine. Not even once. It will turn you into a shadow of your former self and make you do things you never thought you would do. You cannot control this drug---it will take over your mind, body and soul.
Mate, I totally understand where you're coming from. My habit specifically amphetamines has had its filthy claws in me from the age of 18. It eventually ended my relationship with a very beautiful woman and all the family i had become attached to in that time. Although that hurt, losing everything, my partner, my family, my house to this day, i am not cured.
With the money ive spent on meth in this time, i could have paid off a nice house. I've only just recently become debt free. I sought help, medical help, psychological help, in which i got a ADD diagnosis. I was very honest with my docs etc. so now i have ADD medication that i confess, I abuse. I may have ADD but i admit I have a very serious problem.
Back to your story here though, I second every word you have to say. You tell it how it is. Lots wont admit it. But thats an accurate depiction of a typical meth user. Humors me somewhat now, I wont touch meth again... But i still have remaining issues to deal with and just have been too piss weak to rid shit from my otherwise ok life.. Call it a work in progress.. 15 years of saying ok this will be my last time....