Have you ever had a friend, a long time friend, but as many school years go by they end up betraying you in the end?

Well, for me, i never really thought about that when i was little, around 3rd grade. Sure, kids teased me and called me weird and said they didn't like me. I mean i was little, it didn't affect me at all. I didn't understand the concept of being called weird and creepy.

I had one friend that i thought was going to be my friend forever. But in the end he turned his back on me like a piece of garbage. And as time passed i started to realise that friends don't last forever. Never trust anyone not even people that you think are your "friends".

The name calling and nasty words started to sink in at around grade 7 and 8. And at that very moment i figured something out that i should have figured out a long time ago. Never talk to or be friends with anyone. In the end you will just end up getting alienated by them. A lot of bad things in my life could have been prevented if i would have just kept my mouth shut and not talked to anyone. To be honest i would rather have people ignore me and not say a word to me than have them not like me and call me names.

I just want it to all stop, for the people just to leave me and my miserable life alone. But no, i can't have that luxury. It seems my life is bound to misery and hurt. What did i ever do to people for them to not like me and hate me? I always ask myself what did i do to make people want to talk bad about or hurt my feelings? I've been as nice can be my whole life and what do i get in return? Misery. I bet if i died nobody would care about me. My friends wouldn't care, nobody would. What is the point in life anyway? "Fun", "happiness"? Well, guess what, i have none of those.

I just want everyone to leave me to die slowly in peace. I know a lot of people are worse off than me, but still nobody deserves this kind of punishment. Nobody does. Death is one thing that i look forward to nowadays. But, i know that i don't have the guts to kill myself. I just want to be left alone. Is that too much to ask for?