I've always been fat but now turning 13 i've started to realise it's getting in the way of everything!

I go to a dance class and i love hip hop so much and i do advanced jazz. Whenever we have costumes i look like a balloon. They always make excuses for me and tell me their sizes are stupid. The sizes aren't stupid, i'm stupid. I eat i sleep---that's all i do.

My first day at high school, 1 of the yr 12 girls came up to me and said are u pregnant? I was mortified to find they weren't mucking around. I also have a bad case of acne---everything revolves around it!

It's so unfair. There's never been 1 time where i've felt good about myself. I started to do hip hop so much at night i would faint and my mum comes round to ask if i'm ok. I love hip hop so much, i just want to be skinny for it to make all my routines look better!

Why has god cursed me so badly? Everyone comments on how well i can dance, especially hip hop, but it's not enough for me.