I'm 14 turning 15 in a month. My boyfriend Thomas (name changed) has only just broken up with me because he was jealous of me and my guy friend Joseph (name changed) because we where talking too much for Thomas's liking. So just after like 5 minutes after Thomas broke up with me, Joseph told me he loved me. I was so confused because I kinda liked him as well but I knew it would be wrong for us to be together so soon.

I really wanted to work things out with my ex but he didn't want to talk to me because I'd hurt him so bad. I know what I did was wrong but me and Joseph didn't even do anything. So I kinda dropped talking to Thomas because he started to say some pretty horrible stuff to me.

About a week after my ex dumped me, Joseph and I were getting pretty close, like we'd talk till like 2 in the morning. One day he asked me if there could be a me and him. I wanted to but to was too soon for me so I said not just yet.

I still felt bad about me and Thomas so I said I was sorry and I wanted to move on but he didn't want to hear it and started to say shit about me to my best friend. I hated it so I moved on and let it go.

Meanwhile, me and Joseph where hanging out and just being really good friends---well that's what I thought all it was until he kissed me on the forehead. I knew that he wanted to be together and get serious so I just let it slide. It was a couple days later when I realised I wanted to be with him so I went around to his place to meet his parents and he did the same but ate dinner with us.

I asked mum what she thought about him and she that he was nice but too old for me (17) and the fact that he isn't a Christian she didn't like. Later I found out that she didn't want us to get into trouble (SEX). I didn't want to go behind her back so I said that I liked him and wanted to get serious with him. (She wasn't too happy about it.) I told Joseph about it and he was pretty cut but he asked me if I loved him. I knew that I really liked him but not love just yet. I told him that I liked him and wanted to see where things would go.

So to cut the next part of the story short, I told him I loved him after a week of seeing each other and making out. My ex Thomas knew that something was going on between us and wasn't happy and started saying shit once again to my friend. But surprisingly he said sorry to me about everything.

This might seem weird but me and Joseph started talking about the future and he was saying he'd like to marry me one day and we'd live in Italy for a year together. I thought it was so cute and said I'd really like that if we did.

So the last couple of weeks, me and him are getting more serious the way we talk to each other, the way we make out and the way we touch each other.

The thing is that me and this guy aren't officially together but I really want to be but in a way I just want to keep it like the way it is. I'm just not sure what I should do and if I did do something it would be after he comes back from 2 weeks in Italy. :(