Hi. I don't really know how this works so I'm just going to get it out.

I'm 17, male, and live in South Africa. I hate my life. My whole life is a battle.

My dad died when I was 6 and all I have is me mom and sister. I just found out I have bipolar and I'm insane (some sort of personality disorder) and I'm also "emotionally uninteresting", whatever that means. I used to be on drugs and weed, and I still drink a lot. My sex life is good. I can't fall in love any more and I feel like I don't have any emotions.

If anyone out there feels the same or also has these problems, please let me know. I don't want to be alone in this, and I'm kinda scared...