I'm telling my story purely to warn people about the harm some guys can do.
I was with my boyfriend for a year and a bit when we first had sex and i don't regret it at all. We were together for 4 years and madly in love, until i met another guy who was so nice. We hung out on my birthday and immediately i felt feelings for him but this was after my doubts of being in a relationship with my boyfriend. The next day i broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years.
2 days later i was in the other guy's car and he was driving me home. My parents weren't home so he came in. He took the chance to make a move and our first kiss was magical. I didn't want to stop kissing him but i knew i was not to have sex with him. After he begged and begged me to have sex---he was on his knees begging---i gave in because he said he really cared about me.
A week later i was to have the house to myself for the night so he came over. We had sex again and it was fantastic. I loved it and i came to realise i loved him. We did it again at 3 in the morning when he had to leave and without protection.
That day i heard nothing from him and i didn't hear from him for a week when i finally told him my fear of being pregnant and asked him why he wouldn't speak to me anymore. He made up pathetic excuses and i was left heartbroken.
Thankfully when i took a pregnancy test i wasn't pregnant but i cried myself to sleep every night for 3 weeks. I ended up cutting my wrists and pushing people away. My friends were so worried. Eventually i got over him but when my ex found out we haven't been the same even though we swore we would always be friends.
I now find myself with so many trust issues. I'm afraid of getting too close to a boy.
Please take this as a warning: guys can be assholes sometimes. Don't let this happen to you! It's the hardest thing i ever went through!