Hi to whoever reads this. My life is pretty bad. I've been raped, got pregnant, and lost the baby because i got beaten up. Got kicked out of home for over a year. Parents split up when i was 6. Dad's an alcoholic and drug addict, Mum used to use and deal. Pretty much raised my younger siblings from the age of 6 cause both parents were never there. What kind of life is that?
I've moved over 15 times, been to 13 different schools, and never had a stable environment, not that i don't have friends---i have plenty that's for sure. But how do you deal with all the emotional and physical scaring from this?
I've been stabbed, tasered, you name it. I've never done drugs or anything because of the things i've seen and the violence it causes to the people you love most.
I am a really upbeat, happy, funny and confident person. I always smile and cheer people up. Inside it's a different story.
I've spoken to many counsellors about everything. They make it worse they just agree with what you say and say stuff like awh that's not good blah blah. Seriously they get paid to help us yet they sit there and listen and take your money.
All i want is to be loved by someone other than family. I want support and happiness. All my mates love me and are amazing but they wouldn't date me. I wouldn't want to date them anyway but it's so hard to find a guy who doesn't want sex or won't cheat... Where are all the nice, caring guys out there?
There's more but i've already written enough. Please comment what you think. Would really appreciate it!
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Hey hun, well done for staying strong thru it all, no matter what! Its always worth it, believe me! I've been thru a lot in my short life, in some ways similar in other ways different to you, but no matter how bad it seems, there will always be a silver lining! Hang in there, and believe me when I tell you there really is someone out there for everyone! It isn't always found, unless you want it. But if you want something bad enuf, and I believe you do, then one day soon, you'll find him, I promise... (I am speaking from personal experience love, and trust me, its all worth it... & don't worry, cause wen it really happens, you'll know...) [true love]