If only i could tell you
Ok i'm 15 years old and i'm a lesbian. No one knows about it and it hurts not to say anything.
It started in Year 6. I started getting funny around girls. I didn't know what it was then but i sure do now. At first i thought it was just a stage i would grow out of, you know, like people talk about all the time in mags. But it wasn't, it just kept at me all the time. I felt disgusted with myself. I thought i wouldn't be able to live with myself.
Now i'm okay i guess, even though i'm living in total secrecy. I think about telling my mum but then i think will she disown me---will she hate me or think it's disgusting? I hate myself. Every day in my group at school we are always making fun of people and calling them gay and saying they are poofs, and afterwards i feel so ashamed. I just feel the same way with them as i do with my mum and family. I don't know what to do.