My heart fell
I don't know what's wrong with me. I lie, cheat and a lot of other things no one needs to know. I have friends and I do love them but I don't trust them. Everyone asks me why I never tell the truth. I really wanna say I would rather live in a fairy talk than in my real life. Not that it's bad or anything. They ask me have I had sex?, do I have a boyfriend? Why tell? I feel like it's my business.
I will only answer one question and that is, do I have a boyfriend. No, not now, but I did right before I left. He was the best. We started out best friends and then it turned into more. I really thought I loved him, he was the only person I could talk to. We went out for 3 years and when I left my heart fell into my stomach. I felt like my life was crumbling down on me. It still hurts to this day. I still think about him all the time. I love him forever and always but I need to move on, but I can't do it.
Oh my dear. i'm going through the same thing, but the boy i fell in love with wasny my best friend nor will he ever be. He was just a boy that caught my attention, grabbed my heart, and led me into the dark where he left me with no light.
If you really truly loved him, you'll still think about him, your heart will still ache, youll hold back all those tears you want to cry, youll live and die at the same time. You will do things you cant explain, and youll just be in love.
I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through this pain. It sounds like he meant a lot to you and he was more than just a boyfriend, he was your friend, someone you could trust and talk to and go to for comfort. And now you have lost all those things in one - no wonder this has been so hard for you.
All those questions are your own business, but you need to find someone else that you trust to talk to about your pain, or it won't stop eating away at you. I can't tell you that you will get over this, you may never, but one thing I can tell you is that the pain will start to fade and it will get easier in time. I believe that when we don't have control over a situation we have to change our attitude about it.
One positive is that you are lucky to have experienced such an amazing relationship and as much as it sux it had to end, you don't have to. Surround yourself with other things that make you happy - you deserve it.