Through so much
Hi, I'm 15 and I've gone through so much for a young age: smoking cigarettes, alcohol, sex, drugs, etc.
I started smoking cigarettes and drinking alcohol when i was 13. It was really hard to quit. I never really drank a lot of alcohol when I was little just shots. I may not act like I smoked but I did. I look really innocent.
So, school was alright. It wasn't that easy actually because I went to an all girls' school and it was pretty strict and we always had homework. I failed a course, which meant I had to go to summer school.
I never really understood about what drugs were. Until, I met a guy... who i thought was the right guy, but I was wrong. The only thing he was there for was to have sex with me and it was my first time. It was horrible, I didn't like it all.
I was super stressed out. I started smoking a lot more than I used to smoke. I maybe smoked 10-15 smokes a day, which now I think is gross. I moved to a different school, so I decided to start fresh at that school. Well, no. I actually got so much worse when I went to the school I go to now. It is a co-ed school and I never get homework and it isn't that strict.
I met this guy in my class, who I met once last year. I went to his house because one of my friends went to go chill at his place to get high and I didn't smoke weed at the time. So, the guy in my class invited me to go to his place and so i did. There were a lot of people there smoking some weed and everything. They forced me into it, and so i did. I felt free, like I was relaxed felt like nothing wrong was happening. I didn't know everyone there. I thought if I smoked some weed I'll be part of the group.
Well I got in a habit of going to his house every lunch and everyone would smoke some weed at his place. Then after that I started smoking weed at my house. My parents didn't know and I didn't plan on telling them.
After a few months, one of my friends told me to try some other drug and I really didn't know what it was or what it would do to me. It was ecstasy. I got sick. I puked when I first did it. But I felt really sick for like 3 hours, it didn't feel good at all. I threw up and I was with my friends and I loved getting hugs and when someone touched me it felt really weird.
But anyhow, I went to my cousins place to sleep because I knew if I went home I'd be lonely. When I went to my cousins place I was on E still and I was super happy. I couldn't sleep and I wasn't even stressed out about anything, I was just happy and I was like giving everyone hugs.
I got addicted to E until my friends forced me to quit!! Which worked a lot, but anyhow after E I just started smoking some weed. Every day, every morning, lunch, and sometimes at night!
Until one day. I was tripping out really hard. More than I've ever tripped out before. I was walking down the halls for 30 minutes and I felt like I was a cartoon and like all the people were just like stopping and stuff. It was tripping. People's faces were moving, and I felt like I was dead but alive. It's really fucked.
Ever since that day I'm scared that I'm dead right now. But I'm seeing a psychiatrist and it's a big help, and I'm also seeing a psychologist (: Anyhow, i know it sucks but i'm trying to quit smoking now, and I don't do drugs anymore!! (: