My story, well where do i start...? So much has happened recently i just can't handle it anymore. I used to just be able to suck it up but i'm done with fighting it these days.

Last year when i was in Yr 9 my older sister tried to kill herself and was sent to hospital for a month. It was terrible for our family to have to deal with. I had this one teacher who i could talk to, she understood everything and was my rock. Now i have changed to a new campus and i never see her. I miss her but i can't tell her that!!

I have been seeing a counsellor for almost two months and she's amazing, but it' not the same, like she gets paid to give a shit so how do i know if she really cares or not? I just want to go back!

I am falling behind in school so much and can't handle my work and am getting so much homework. I tell my teachers constantly but none of them seem to get it!! I constantly feel upset and numb, and i miss my old life and everything i had!

My one friend who i could trust has basically said she can't handle all my shit and doesn't think we can be friends anymore so i don't know what i am going to do. I don't want to just walk away, we have been through too much together to be able to just switch it off.

I feel i can't do anything. I keep telling myself i will get through it and to be strong but i can say it a million times over and it still doesn't work. I do love life and want to live mine, i just wish god was more fair!

Sorry it's not much of a story. I have never been any good at saying how i feel!!!