I'm really shy around everyone I don't know, or don't know well. Even with the friends and family and people I do know, sometimes i'm still shy around them.
People who don't know me properly just think i'm weird and quiet and I am, but i'm not the person that I show people.
I wish I could just be myself but it's really hard for me. It's like something psychological is physically stopping me. I know that sounds weird but that's just what it feels like.
It happens when i'm just speaking to people, when i'm at uni talking to others or lecturers, and when i'm doing speeches (which I hate because I can't do them). It's like my brain blanks out and my voice goes all weird and won't talk any louder than a certain quiet volume... It happens when i'm talking to new people or friends that i'm not close to yet.
But, the people i'm friends with, i'm like, well I guess I worry that they won't like me or they'll hurt me or something so I put up a wall. I guess that's what I do with everyone, but then because of that i'm like, well they just think i'm weird and don't like me because i'm just weird, quiet and boring.
With people I get really quiet and I just don't have anything to say or know what to say when in reality I do want to talk to them but I guess I look like I don't. I don't know how to start/continue a conversation with them. I just don't know what to do and any advice would be much appreciated.